I was actually trying to write a piece of literary work which has a sentimental meaning and somewhat having an artistic value. But how unfortunate, this brain can’t stop thinking sarcastically towards things around me. Rage, Dissatisfaction, anger. What else? Isolation? You name it.
I have a very-rollercoaster-ing emotion today. Skyrocket-ing jumping mood. And what I am doing now is one of the varied alternatives of neutralizing my mood. Realizing that I have the worst anger management ever, I have steps of reducing anger/ rage inside of me. I always begin this sort of ritual (of neutralizing my mood) by eating food that I crave for. Then I continue it to do blog. It ends with sleeping-beauty-ritual 
I love being me.
There is no reason for hating myself. Currently I don’t care with what people say. They might say that I’m agressive, sarcastic, whatsoever. But the point is, I value myself just the way I am. I never mean to hurt people around me. I just keep distance with people when I need to. Thus, people often call me somewhat introvert. I don’t share my world with strangers. I’m living in the world of my own. Maybe you’ll say this is funny; but somehow, sometimes, we can hate people without any reason. We do it emotionally unconscious(ly).
Recently I’m listening to peaceful-toned songs like John Mayer’s and Kings of Conveniences. It makes me more relax. Ah, for your information, I suggest you all to hear Anggun’s Elevation (album). You’ll find interesting tracks inside. Omaigod, what am I talking about? One time I talked about my emotional condition, and in another part of my writing I talked about music. Music heal my wounded heart, sometimes 
Ah, I hear John Mayer sings for me…
I hate to see you cry
Lying there in that position
There’s things you need to hear
So turn off your tears
And listenPain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won’t all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is goodYou know, it’s nothing new
Bad news never had good timing
But then, the circle of your friends
Will defend the silver liningPain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won’t all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is goodPain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
Fear is a friend who’s misunderstood
But I know the heart of life is good
I know it’s good
(The Heart of Life – John Mayer)
*severely wanting someone’s presence*
